Red Blood Cell or Glob of Plaque?

Red Blood Cell or Glob of Plaque?

God has entrusted to each of us a unique role, a unique mission of love, within the Body of Christ. That may seem hard to believe at first: God has given me a special mission of love to carry out in life? But it’s true. Each of us is given the great privilege, and the solemn responsibility, of helping to pass on the divine love to other members (and prospective members) of the Body of Christ. Which includes everyone, because God wants everyone to share in his divine life and love forever (Matt 18:14; 1 Tim 2:4). You have been given a unique mission to share the divine love with others. The unique meaning and purpose of your life lies in your mission of love. Your mission is irreplaceable. No one else can fulfill your mission for you. No one else’s life will touch the exact combination of people that your life will touch. No one else can make the contribution to the eternal circulation of love flowing within the Body of Christ that you were born to make. What is the mission of love with which God has entrusted you?

For most of us, the mission of love that God has in mind isn’t some dramatic, world-changing mission, something that will have a huge impact on the world as a whole or draw a lot of attention to us. Instead, most of us are called to local missions of love. There’s a saying that goes something like “Strive to make your little corner of the world a better place.” It’s a good saying. If we all did that, the whole world would be a much better place.

The absolutely best way to make your “little corner” of the world a better place is to spread some of the divine love to that little corner. Start at home. How can you be more loving to your spouse? How can you be more loving to your children? Then extend yourself further: how could you be more loving to your friends? Your neighbors? Your co-workers? The people you perceive to be your “enemies”?

We all have a choice in life: we can be red blood cells flowing within the Body of Christ, helping to carry life-giving oxygen (the divine love) to other members and prospective members of that Body, or we can choose to be globs of plaque, clogging the arteries of that Body and obstructing the flow of divine love. Most of us are a little bit of both. Resolve to be more of a red blood cell and less of a glob of plaque.

 

* This article is an excerpt from Rick’s latest book, The Book of Love: Brief Meditations (https://enroutebooksandmedia.com/thebookoflove/)

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Copyright 2023 Rick Clements

Blood Circulating in the Body of the Cosmic Christ

Blood Circulating in the Body of the Cosmic Christ

All human beings are born to share forever in the eternal circulation of love that is the divine life. But to participate as fully as possible in the divine life, we have to learn to selflessly give and receive the gift of self in love. That’s what we’re here to learn how to do. And the more fully we learn to do that, the more fully we can share in the divine love and life and bliss.

But how could we humans possibly share in the divine life of God? How could we, who are finite beings, be united with the infinite God? There is an infinite chasm between us finite human beings and God. We cannot leap over the abyss separating the finite from the infinite. We need a lifeline of some kind to be thrown across to us from the shores of infinity, a bridge of some sort that will span the abyss and enable us to cross over into the divine realm. Jesus Christ is that lifeline; Jesus Christ is that “vaulting bridge” who spans the abyss separating us finite beings from the infinite God. Jesus has forever united the human with the divine in himself, thereby making space for all human beings (indeed, the entire cosmos!) within the divine life of God.

Think about it: God and humanity, the infinite and the finite, united in the one person of Jesus Christ, in such a way that the path for us to transcend our finitude and participate in the infinity of Being, to share in the divine life of God forever, has been opened up to all human beings and to the entire cosmos. Seemingly impossible; seemingly incredible. But if it is true (which it is), then this one person would be the answer to the riddle of human existence. That is why our individual destinies are determined by our answer to the single most important question confronting us in life: Yes or No to Jesus Christ, which is a Yes or No to love and therefore a Yes or No to God and to our ultimate fulfillment as human beings. We were all born to be “blood circulating in the Body of the cosmic Christ,” in Balthasar’s beautiful phrase. By uniting ourselves to the Body of Christ, we are united with God and with all the other members of that Body. By uniting ourselves to the Body of Christ, we join in the eternal circulation of love that is the divine life and find therein our ultimate fulfillment.

* This article is an excerpt from Rick’s latest book, The Book of Love: Brief Meditations (https://enroutebooksandmedia.com/thebookoflove/)

Copyright 2023 Rick Clements

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All Aboard The Surrender Express!

All Aboard The Surrender Express!

 

I am a huge fan of nostalgia, ranging from black-and-white television shows to antique furniture and sentimental trinkets. Simple times, unique vehicles, and outdated fashions appeal to a special part of me. One, in particular, stands out among the rest, and that is the old-fashioned train.

A few years ago while planning a vacation, I found a vintage train car converted into a hotel room. To my surprise, there are several of these throughout the country! I found a couple within driving distance, bringing my mission to fulfillment. My favorite was the Chattanooga Choo-Choo, which sits on the actual train track, and the ticket station is now the hotel lobby. 

The exterior of the passenger car was untouched other than fresh paint, and much of the inside retained the feel of that era, aside from having a bed and modern-day necessities. Oh, how I longed to go back in time, dressed with the white gloves and pretty hat.  Little did I know that dream would also one day be a reality.  A year or so later, I boarded a 1940s-themed dinner train, dressed as if I had stepped out of 1941.

The lure of the train was whimsical, and the sounds of the engine chugging before picking up speed drew me into a place of wonder and relaxation. As a child, I could hear a train whistle in the distance from my grandmother’s house and often thought about who might be on it and where it was going. 

More recently while chatting with a friend, a nonchalant answer got me thinking. When asked how things were going, my friend responded, “The train has left the station.” To which I asked, “Are you on it?”

I’ve been reflecting on that lighthearted exchange and the image of running to catch a train as it’s leaving the station, and I considered how it relates to my faith and God’s plan. Begging the ultimate question, am I living each day on my itinerary or God’s? I don’t even want to count how often I was so focused on my plans that I was blind to how God was trying to direct my steps. I’m not one to dwell on the past. However, I am always eager to learn from my mistakes.

For train travel, there is no room for adjustments once a trip is planned and advertised. Regardless of who is and isn’t on the train, it will leave the station on time. I like to live my life in this way—trusting the schedule that God has set for me. However, sometimes I want to sneak in a secondary scheme or backup plan. When I do this, there is the possibility that my plan B is wavering from God’s ultimate plan. The fruit is in the process of discerning whether or not to travel my way or surrender to God’s will.

Surrendering to the will of God involves prayerful communication, trust, faith, and a willingness to let go. The image of someone running after a train looks great in the movies, but in real-life instances, I don’t want to have to run after something God had right in front of me. I prefer to be on board, seated comfortably and have it fall right into my lap.

Another recent conversation regarding God’s will focused on whether or not to take action in creating a plan B for a particular situation. When it was all said and done, the family decided to take the need directly to God through prayer, leaving the outcome in His hands. A measurable amount of faith and trust in God were the key components to this family surrendering the need and the result to our Lord.

Complete acts of surrender are to be celebrated, regardless of the conclusion. As a highly organized person, it makes total sense to have a safety net; in some cases, it is a strategic move. Then again, factoring in my faith and relationship with Jesus reminds me that God is in control. It would be easy for me to go about my life as I think it should go, whereas it will be fulfilling and beautiful when God lines it all up for me. 


 

Discerning a Vocation

Discerning a Vocation

Are you still discerning a vocation?

That’s okay! It takes time to discern a vocation. You shouldn’t rush into it and then regret it later. Pray about it. Spend some time with the Lord. Go to daily Mass and the Adoration Chapel.

Try making a little list of things that you could work on to help you grow spiritually in your daily life. Write them down in a journal. Get wise counsel from a nun or a priest; talk to them about your discernment process.

It’s not wrong to be single!

Some people think it’s not good for young men or women to be single. Sometimes they try to change their minds by getting into matchmaking or talking them out of it. In Jane Austen’s time, once a young woman reached a certain age, she was considered an old maid. Thank goodness we no longer think like that.

Single men and women should never be looked down on because they aren’t married. They should be encouraged in their vocation!

Single men and women help people in different ways; it just might not always be noticed or appreciated. It is the little things, like St. Therese the Little Flower talked about in her book The Story of a Soul, that matter in the eyes of God. He notices whenever someone does a kind deed for another or offers up daily sacrifices.

 What is a consecrated virgin?

 A consecrated virgin is a man or a woman who takes the permanent vow of chastity and is consecrated by a diocesan bishop. They discern after, a period of time, that God is calling them to be single and remain in this state. Consecrated virgins commit to spending time with the Lord. They are encouraged to read the book of Psalms from the Bible or The Divine Office.

If reading the Divine Office seems overwhelming to you, you can also read The Little Divine Office of The Blessed Virgin Mary. This book has a shorter version of most of the same things that relate to the Divine Office, like Matins, Lauds, Prime, and Sext.

But … I don’t want to become a consecrated virgin.

 You don’t have to become a consecrated virgin. You can still serve the Lord whether you are married or single. God wants all of us to spend time with him.

What if God is calling me to become a nun or a priest?

 Again, it is a very good idea to discern the call that God has for you. If you are seriously thinking about becoming a nun or a priest, research the different orders. If there is an order that grabs your attention, contact them to see how you can learn more.

A final note

 If you are called to marriage, consecrated virginity, or to become a priest or nun, God will give you the strength to take these steps. Sometimes, as Maria in The Sound of Music said, “When the Lord closes a door, somewhere he opens a window.” We might not always understand in this life why he would close the door on one of these options, but in the meantime, we ask him for his will. He will guide you in this process.

Copyright 2023 Angela Lano

We Believe…We Have Faith…But Where’s the Peace?

We Believe…We Have Faith…But Where’s the Peace?

Throughout this Lent we’ve seen the Apostles, Samaritans, Martha, and Mary say, “I believe.” But what does it mean to “believe”? What and how should we believe?

We’ve all heard the adage, “If it quacks like a duck and walks like a duck and swims like a duck…” So why do people still question what’s quacking, waddling, and swimming? The Apostles saw Jesus heal, teach, and cast out demons; yet Peter denied he knew Jesus.

Sometimes we need to “unlearn” what we, as adults, “know” to be true and regain the way children believe—with pure faith that leads to peace.

If a young girl is scared, she listens to her grandma, who says, “No child, there are no monsters under the bed. Now come here.” The grandma stays with and comforts the little girl, helping her find peace as she hums a lullaby, and the little girl drifts off to sleep.

Or when a scared little boy approaches a busy street—cars whizzing by, honking, making noise. He takes his grandpa’s hand, and as soon as his little hand slips into grandpa’s old and weathered fingers the boy is at peace. He believes his grandpa will get him safely across that dangerous street.

Today (like the Samaritans, Apostles, Martha and Mary) we’ve forgotten how to believe—as a child. To have faith—as a child. And be at peace—as a child. To “unlearn” what we as adults “know” to be true.

—A little story—

I was born a farming ranch kid with more cattle than my little fingers could count. My whole adult family knew the neighbors to the south were sheep farmers—dirty, stinking, rotten sheep farmers—and believed they were evil because they dared to raise sheep in cattle country.

One night we saw a glow coming from our northern neighboring cattle farm. Their barn and hay were on fire. Soon every farmer and rancher for a twenty-mile radius came—putting out flames, moving livestock, saving what they could. The shepherd was the first to arrive and the last to leave, even though he knew how all the cattle ranchers felt.

The cattle ranchers helped rebuild the barn, but no one had extra hay for his stock of hundreds of mouths to feed. One night, several semi-trucks pulled into the farmyard. The lead driver said, “Someone anonymously sent us. Where do you want it?” It was eight semi-truck loads of hay! Later we found out the shepherd freely gave the hay, asking nothing in return.

We had believed what others said about the shepherd, instead of listening to the preaching of his actions. Our eyes were finally opened to childlike believing, with faith and goodness—finally finding peace with him. Like our eyes being opened, Peter and the “other apostle” in next week’s Gospel finally believed when they see the empty tomb. They finally understand and have faith in what Jesus has been showing, teaching, and modeling for three years. Finally finding peace.

So, this Easter, what could you:

  • “unlearn”? Something you “know” to be true but isn’t?
  • find faith in, like a child, and find peace?

Ben Bongers, 2023

Journey ad Amorem

Journey ad Amorem

We’re all here to learn how to love. Life is a school of love. The things that happen to you in life are meant to help you learn how to love. The people who cross your path in life are meant to help you learn how to love, and you’re meant to help them learn how to love, too.

We’re all on a journey back to God, a journey ad Deum. It’s just that some of us don’t realize that yet, or have forgotten it, or else don’t want to believe it. But we are. We all came from God, and we’re all intended to return to God. Only in God will we find the ultimate happiness, freedom, purpose, and peace that we so desperately desire.

The little three-word phrase “God is love” (1 John 4:16) is the most profound statement ever uttered by a human being. For some people, however, the phrase “God is love” has become so familiar as to have become almost trite. They may acknowledge that it is true in the abstract, but it is not a truth that they allow to impact their daily lives in any significant way: “‘God is love’ sounds nice, but it doesn’t pay the bills”—this seems to be the attitude of some people. Other people reject the claim that “God is love” entirely.

Many of us need to consider (or reconsider) the profound meaning and implications of the claim that “God is love.” This little phrase not only claims that God exists; it also makes a startling claim about what God is. The claim is not just that God has love, but rather that God is love. Love is what God is. God’s essence, the core of who and what God is, is love. Not thought, or power, or freedom, or knowledge, or any of the other things that we human beings might have expected or predicted to be the essence of God, but love.

But “God is love” is not just a statement about God. It’s also a statement about the nature of existence, the nature of life itself. God is not just one more being among many. God is not some “super-being” with superhuman powers. Some atheists seem to derive pleasure from attacking such images of God, but that’s not the God in whom we Christians believe. No, God is not just one more being among many; God is Being itself (Exodus 3:14; John 8:58). God is the Mind behind all that exists, the Mind that gave rise to all that exists and that sustains everything in existence from moment to moment, the Source and Ground of all that exists, the uncaused Cause of all that exists. So if God is Being itself, and the essence of God is love, then the essence of Being itself is love. Love is what Being is, so love is what being is meant to be. To love is to be, and to love more fully is to be more fully. The more fully we join in the dynamic of love, the more fully we share in Being, and the more fully alive we are.

Some of the ancients described human life as a process of exitus and reditus: a going out from God when we are born into this life so that we might then freely choose whether or not we want to return to God forever. Our life is intended to be a journey back to God, a journey back to Love. We were born for love. We were made from and for love. We were created to dwell forever in the divine Love, but whether we end up there or not depends on whether we accept God’s offer of a share in the divine life.

Life is a beautiful and profound and mysterious drama in which our ultimate destiny, our eternal destiny, hinges on our choice of whether to say Yes or No to Love and to love. The stakes couldn’t be higher. So why does God leave the choice up to us? Again, it’s because love, to be genuine, has to be both freely offered and freely accepted. God doesn’t work by force, but rather by persuasion. God freely offers us the gift of a share in the divine life and love, but it’s up to each of us to choose whether to accept the gift or not. We’re all enrolled in the school of love, but it’s up to each of us whether we make the most of the opportunity or choose to drop out.

* This article is an excerpt from Rick’s recently released book, The Book of Love: Brief Meditations. https://enroutebooksandmedia.com/thebookoflove/

Rick Clements, 2023

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Mass on the Rock

Mass on the Rock

It was what the Irish call a ‘soft day.’ Drenching afternoon rain fell after a cold and misty morning. Some among us worried that it might not be worth the effort. It was difficult enough to walk when the ground was dry, never mind through a spooky meadow that rolled under your feet like a ship on the churning sea.

It looked to be quite a distance, too, at the end of what had already been an exhausting day. You’d understand if you yourself had a knee or a hip needing surgery. This group had eight or ten of them. Our hosts, who’d spent the whole wet day in the field preparing for our arrival, did understand. They kindly offered us the church in town to celebrate Mass for any of our pilgrims who felt they couldn’t make their way to the Rock.

Then somebody said, “The rain’s letting up!” Somebody said, “Let’s those of us who feel we can go, let’s give it a try?”

With Father’s encouragement, everyone managed to clamber off the bus and onto a gravel road. At the open fence gate, a young woman smiled and said, “You’re very welcome!” Just beyond her, the farmer took each hand into his own. He inspected our eyes, pilgrim by pilgrim, nodding his personal welcome as if it were a matter of life and death.

For over three hundred years, it was.

We set out across the fields, breathing in the thick green air. We shivered in our raincoats. Most of us had no idea where we were headed. If you knew what to look for, you might be able to recognize the place by an ancient grove of sacred Druid trees perched on the horizon. Eventually our guide pointed out an entrance, hidden among shrubs that grew beneath the trees. We pushed through a narrow opening to discover steep stone steps cut into a muddy hillside.

More than six feet below, the freshly-excavated chapel stretched out in an ell. Heavy cinder blocks were stacked along the sides; new boards were laid on top of the blocks for benches, and boards were laid below for walking across the mud. A pearly grey boulder held the corner. The air surged with aromas:  freshly-sawn lumber, damp peat and fertile earth. We felt humbled to see so much labor expended to provide for us.

“Why, they wouldn’t believe we’re Father Flanagan’s people,” someone said, “If we hadn’t had the courage to come!’

The Rock turned out to be a smooth, asymmetrical chunk of granite, nearly three feet tall, and almost five feet in diameter. It sparkled as if it had been scrubbed with rainbows. Atop the boulder stood pictures of our Lord and our Lady on either side of a simple Crucifix.

Father laid his communion kit directly onto this stone altar. He passed the scripture book to the lector and shook off his coat. He vested for Mass right there on the soil among us. He tried to light candles, but they kept blowing out. Worn over only a short-sleeved shirt, his surplice flew in the chilly gale. But the flame of the Holy Spirit glowed in all hearts as he made the sign of the cross to open our liturgy.

While Father distributed Eucharist, three of us together began to sing at the same moment, the same inspired song: “This is holy ground. We’re standing on holy ground, for the Lord is present and where He is, is holy.” Another woman mimed the words for each verse while everybody sang: “He’s given us holy hands. He’s given us holy lips.” Father maneuvered from plank to plank as if he’d never celebrated Mass in any other way.

Stalks of ripened grain in the fields above our heads swayed in the breeze, blessing us like banners. Though we knew we would be invisible from the road, we could almost hear the tramp of soldiers’ feet on the wind. We reflected on Father’s homily, thinking about how many generations of Irish people had gathered for Mass just like this, under penalty of death. They hid below crops they were forbidden to eat, celebrating Eucharist without the luxuries of raincoats, candles or songs.

All that nourished them was the Lord. They did not consider His Feast a meager meal.

When we returned to ordinary time and contemporary place, that luscious green labyrinth still shimmied under our feet. But this time the walk did not seem long.

Three-year-old Michael led the charge to the bus. He scampered across the landscape with a wild flower in his hand. He went spinning around the meadow, cavorting in tall grass under the wide sky.

Every single one of us danced along behind him, all the way back to Ballymoe.

© Copyright 2023 by Margaret Zacharias

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*A previous version of this true story was published in Sunday Bulletin, St. Theresa of the Child Jesus Catholic Church, Diocese of Des Moines, Iowa, 2007; and appears in another form on the author’s website, www.animaviva.com.

Continuing Christmas Giving – All Year Long

Continuing Christmas Giving – All Year Long

 

“This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.”  John 15:12

 

Somewhere between youth and golden years, I began spending more than I could afford around the holidays. I thought that was the way my gifts would reflect my love and care for the recipients. Then, over ten years ago, a few months before Christmas, I announced that there would be no “presents.” After reading about creating memories rather than accumulating possessions, I yearned for a return to simplicity, sharing more time together and remembering God’s true Christmas gift, His love manifested through Jesus. I promised my family the gift of a book, Journey to Love.

As has happened so many times, God gave me words to share. Journey to Love began as a collection of my poems from childhood through marriage, but while transferring them from tattered notebooks and paper scraps, I remembered the circumstances surrounding the poems and added personal reflections. I often typed after long work days, late at night and into the early hours of morning, but the Holy Spirit saw me through. I kept up the hectic schedule for three months – just in time to self-publish the book.

I realized then the true Christmas Gift – Christ and his love – is meant to be celebrated all year long. We are meant to love one another, give of ourselves, and strive every day to love as Christ did. That was it! Love one another – and I am blessed to have a family that tries to do exactly that.

For instance, my Persian family doesn’t celebrate Christmas, but they know what it is, and they understand the gift of love. My sister-in-law lived with us many years, caring for her son with special needs. She practiced Christmas giving every day. She came to Mass with me on Sundays because she wanted to be in “God’s house”. She would touch our picture of the Sacred Heart and ask for his help.  And, every day, she cared for us – baking bread, keeping the house in order while we worked and loving each of us even when it was tiring for her. That’s Christmas love.

But it really began with my parents, whom I wrote about last month. They also practiced Christmas giving daily. Daddy loved gardening and brought my mum a fragrant rose every day, which she placed on the ledge above the kitchen sink or at the little altar beneath the picture of the Sacred Heart.

When we were teens, Daddy always listened to us, waited for us to come home from dates and prepared us before Mass to receive the Eucharist. My mother faithfully cared for us. Even when tired, Mum made our home pleasant and sparkling, so that after work my father could spend time in his garden. In the years before he died, he called her his “guardian angel.” Daddy’s doctor remarked, if not for my mother’s care, he would not have survived for as long as he did; that’s Christmas giving.

Every shred of faith I have is a gift from God, and my parents first shared their gift as loving role models. Their daily Christmas giving permeated my life. I didn’t know then, but I saw it when I wrote Journey to Love – they infused in me a natural sense of Christmas love.

When I was fourteen and money was tight for our family, I did something which seemed ordinary to me, but which was really a result of my parents’ example. I had just received two dollars for a four-hour babysitting job. My parents rarely went out, reserving every spare penny to provide Catholic schooling for my sisters and me.

It was Saturday after chores when I saw an old Indian proverb while flipping through the “Reader’s Digest”: “If of thy mortal goods thou art bereft, and to thee alone two loaves of bread are left; take one, and sell it – and with the dole, buy hyacinths to feed the soul.” After reading the accompanying short story, I knew what I wanted to do with my two dollars. Putting them in an envelope with the words of the proverb, I penned a note to my parents to enjoy an evening at the movie theater a few blocks away.

I share this memory to tell you why – over a decade ago – I rediscovered God’s Christmas love. I had lost that insight during my materialistic years. Looking back at my parents, remembering simpler times, and family life, I know for sure God’s love, through Christ, is ours to give each other every day; Christmas giving – all year long.

Copyright 2023, Paula Veloso Babadi

A Heart Story

A Heart Story

Remember the blessings

I had heart surgery when I was four years old. The only things that I remember about this event are going to the hospital and taking a sip of the anesthesia. My parents have a better memory about my heart surgery. It was a scary time for them.

My heart surgery was thirty years ago, around Halloween. My parents kept track of this event. Each year they read the story aloud, reliving the emotions and touching memories. The main things that stuck in their minds were the blessings.

They remember how God strengthened us during this emotional roller coaster. They remember the people who encouraged us, comforted us, giving me gifts, and making meals. These simple blessings helped us in a variety of ways.

Acts of thanksgiving

Thanksgiving is coming! As we gather around the table and eat a nice piece of pumpkin pie (with cool whip on top), remember the graces God has bestowed on us this year.

Remember your blessings out loud together as a family. Write them down in your journal, or on a piece of paper. Put the thankful list in a place so that you can glance at it every day.

Being thankful helps us forget the hardships in life.

Psalms of praise

The book of Psalms is a wonderful example of gratitude! King David reminds us again and again to be thankful. To give praise to God, putting our hope and trust in him. To sing his blessings day after day.

Examples

Here are a couple of Psalms that mention praise and blessings.

Psalm 18: 1-3. I love you O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliver, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies.

Psalm 21: 3. For you meet him with goodly blessings; you set a crown of fine gold on his head.

These verses remind us that God is with us. He protects us in times of temptation. He guides us each day. He helps us in every situation. He loves us.

Are you struggling with something today?

God understands. He is nearby, taking care of you. He knows your fears, hopes, joys, and sorrows. He is waiting for you to come to him. You are his precious child.

Concluding thought:

As we prepare our Thanksgiving meals, remind yourself of the blessings and favors that you have received this year. The friends and family members who encouraged you, and those who helped you in both the good and bad times.

Tell God thank you for bringing these people into your life.

 

Copyright 2022 Angela Lano

The Path Late Taken

The Path Late Taken

Thy word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”  Psalm 119:105

I am one of those people who let life happen to me rather than setting an intentional course for my life.  But it is never too late to learn. As I look back over the years, I now see where turning to God for guidance through prayer and scripture at a young age might have led me to different destinations. No regrets. I wandered where I did and in the process of getting lost and finding my way back, I learned ask for and seek God’s light on all my paths. He is the lamp by which I write.

I have been writing since childhood. When high school rolled around, like most kids, I considered what I might want to do with my life. Journalism sounded appealing as I joined the school newspaper, but so did Library Science – a means to be immersed in a world of books. I thought about majoring in English.

It turned out; I became a nurse. My parents advised I’d always be able to find work. The manager at my first job said I would make a great nurse. I had two partial scholarships: one to Rosary College in Chicago where there was a library science program and one to Barry College in Miami where I had every intention on majoring in English. When an uncle told me Chicago was so cold in the winter, students walked through underground tunnels to get to classes, I swayed toward staying in Florida with the sun and beaches. The safe path.

At orientation, along with the crowd of freshmen being directed to meeting rooms, “English majors over here,” “Nursing majors, this way.”  I heard the voices of people I loved and respected and headed in the direction for Nursing.  It was the early seventies when there was a glut of teachers and jobs were hard to find.  The hasty detour.

In that split second decision, at age seventeen, I set the course for my life over the next twenty or so years. I lost sight of a few important road signs.  Number one, I loved words. Would I love tending to the human body and its maladies as much? I forgot about an impressionable moment in senior advanced English creative writing class with the editor of The Liguorian, a popular Catholic magazine.

The priest who talked with our class about writing, did so with a smelly brown cigar, wafting smoke into my brain pushing out any ability to hear or comprehend what he was saying.  I vividly remember after more than fifty years the growing ash at the tip of his cigar, teetering, clearly close to dropping on the linoleum floor.  Did he not notice? Didn’t anyone notice?  Were they so engrossed in his lecture or so not bothered by the odor that they ignored the possibility of a soon-to-be- scorched floor or possibly even a fire?

Behind him the jalousie windows were closed.  I couldn’t wait any longer and politely got up and turned the handle on the glass louvers, pointing out that now he could tap his cigar outside.  Oh, the fresh air! I forgave his odorous affront when he promptly told the class, “Now there is a good writer.”  Why did I not remember his statement during freshman orientation day? Again, no regrets, just a reminder to myself to look for the lamp to light my way.

So here I am more than fifty years later, writing. The path between college and retirement included stops as a Navy nurse and a long stint in the insurance industry with small detours down the creative writing alley. As retirement draws near, I’m paying closer attention to the road signs leading me to my dream of being a writer. As for that priest, I don’t remember anymore the smell of his cigar or even one word of his lecture, but I cling tightly to his singular statement, “Now there’s a good writer.” I’ll leave it to you to decide if I’m a good one or not. It’s never too late.

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